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5elaine

hi all im pregnant with my 6th pregnancy my first i lost at 13 weeks i found out at the first scan there was no heart beat i then went on to have 3 healthy children pheonix (girl) whos now 6 lida(pronounce lee da girl) whos now 5 and alexis (boy) whos now 4 all close together i no.
in 2010 i fell pregnant again a bit unexpectedly( didnt plan on having another one just yet) but never the less we were frilled. as always i held my breath when we went to the first scan untill they said and theres the heart beat.
at 16 weeks i suddenly started bleeding very heavely believing the worst we sped our way to hospital where i was scanned our beautiful baby still there still healthy but a clot had formed i was checked over and swabs was taken and i was sent home on bed rest and i was told another scan will be arranged, 2 weeks later i finally got rescanned all this time i was still bleeding.
the scan showed i still had the blood clot inside of me but the sonographer didnt seem at alll worried and told me i could come off bed rest and take it easy. my next scan at 20 weeks showed the clot still there no change in size and baby still doing well.
well we thought we had made it this far baby is ok still we should be fine it was just going to be a hard prgenancy but it wasnt to be...
at 22 weeks and 1 day my blood loss increased and i started contracting we rushed back to the hospital where i was checked over and told that they wanted me to stay in over night "to be kept an eye on" over night i repeated to the midwives that my pains was getting worse and was given some painkillers at 11 the next morning i was told i could go home which ended in an arguement with the doctor and myself as by that time i was struggling to get to the loo let alone go home yet they still didnt take head of what i was saying.
at 1:45pm my son was born at 22 weeks and 2 day i was alone and noone seemed to realise i was in labour. i was taken to a side room where i spent a precious hour with my son who was perfectly formed and weighed only 500g .
i spent a long time feeling let down by the medical care i was given during those 18 hours unfortunatly there is nothing i can do to get my son back.
a few weeks ago i found out that im pregnant again and all though i am thrilled im also soooo scared i also hoped i would have the same midwife i had during my other pregnancies as she was brilliant she knew my whole history for pregnancy birth etc but i have found she retired late last year and im not looking forward to having a new midwife.
ive had the worry ever since my first pregnancy of the first scan what it might show and now that 24 week mark is just as worrying. can any one relate to this? what did you do to relieve your mind?
sorry its a bit long winded but im just so worried and scared