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Hello
My twins were born at 26+2 weeks after laser surgery to stop twin to twin transfusion. Unfortunately one twin developed NEC and died at 7 1/2 weeks old. Now I'm left both unable to grieve for Scarlett cos I feel I should be embracing Holly and unable to be happy about Holly cos I feel disloyal to Scarlett. I'm being ripped apart inside which is totally ruining my milk supply for Holly, I'm not sleeping more than 2 hrs a night, and I'm deeply depressed. I'm a recovered self harmer and I'm terrified I'm heading back that way which would destroy my husband. The hospital is starting to talk about Holly coming home in a few weeks (she's 11 weeks now) and I just can't see how I'll cope. I feel well and truly broken.
Hi
I really cant understand what you must be going through, i think you need to talk to someone, mabye a counselor to get everything off your chest. I think your emotions will be all over the place, but you will grieve for Scarlett in your own time and i'm sure you will be a great mum to Holly. Most of all you really need to look after yourself and try to be strong. I'm really sorry i couldnt be more helpfull but i had to reply. There are people out there who i'm sure would try and help you through this (sad + Happy ) time. Take Care Gem xxx
hi,
I lost my son last year when he was 2 1/2 weeks old, i have just found out i am pregnant again and not sure how to feel. i feel like i'm betraying bradley, but i know he's looking forward to having a little brother or sister to watch over, i won't say it gets easier, because it doesn't. i miss my baby more each day, but i'm trying to learn to live with this. it does help to speak to someone that can understand what your feeling, if you ever need a chat, i'm available. take care jane x x x
Hi hun i can only imagine what your going through, but i do know what post natel depression is like, so i can say from my heart, talk to your doctor, what you are feeling is natural!!!, give your self permission to greave and to love Holly as you love scarlett, they are both in your heart and no one wil ever take that away from you, but it sounds like you need help expressing your feeling in a positive way, so please please talk to your doctor, you own it to yourself, your husband and to Scarlett and Holly. Just because Scarlett is no longer here in body doesn't mean your supposed to forget her or love her any less,honey. Take good care of yourself xxxxxx
Hi , i know what you are going through to a degree i have had twin to tiwn ,had laser surgery ,and lost one of them at 23 weeks im now 33 weeks other baby is ok had 2mri scans to see if he had brain damage but he is ok im havin a c section at 37 weeks but it hurts that ill only have the one cause it was ment to be twins but tryin to be strong.if u need talk we can any time
ihi just wanted t say my heart goes out to alll of you. you are very strong women.i hope everything works out for you all xxx
Just to let everyone know (sorry I haven't let you know sooner) but Holly is finally home. She came home almost 3 weeks ago. Its hard being a mum isn't it? lol! Thank you all so much for your support
Hi
I know how you feel i had twins at 24 weeks in december both girls and we lost one Amber at 4 days old from a brain hemmorage, but we stll had to look after Phoebe her sister and i lost my milk supply,she got NEC at 4 weeks and we were so so close to losing her aswell its so hard to grieve for the one you have lost and stay strong for the one you still have,you will get through this you just need to keep talking and ask for help, Phoebe has been home for nearly 4 months now and she is doing well, we still think of Amber everyday and know she is a part of her sister which keeps me going hope it all works out for you xxx
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Posted on 05/05/2008 11:05:36